Whelp. I guess he’s definitely my kid. At this point my husband would have said, “go ask your Mom.”

Why do we come to Earth? Perfect, let’s dive into this at 10pm on a Monday night.  I do love this question though and thought it worth sharing our conversation.

I began by explaining it’s my belief that it’s our Soul’s choice to visit Earth. I believe the larger aspect of us, which you might call your Soul/Higher Self/Awareness/Consciousness, chooses when to incarnate (I believe we incarnate for many lives), to which parents, which part of the world, and which circumstances. I like to think of it as going to an amusement park or choosing to play a game. But of course Earth steps it up a notch by being a wildly immersive, multi-sensory, all-inclusive game.

The game of Life.

To illustrate my point further, we talked about the fact that we as Souls are creative Beings with a very powerful, imaginative, and expansive energy – because we originate directly from the Divine. And we’re always connected to her – and her energy. Because of this connection and power, the energy that we are wants to CREATE. It wants to expand. It wants to experience new things and try out new ideas.

While there’s always an energetic aspect of us that remains “on the other side,” our Soul/Awareness chooses to send some of its creative energy to Earth in order to live out a human life. So in this way, we are truly Spirit – living a human Game of Life for a while. But the large majority of our energy doesn’t even come here to Earth – it remains in the higher frequencies/realms.

To simplify it, I asked him this:
Imagine a life where you always get what you want with the snap of your finger, and everything was always perfect and blissful, with no challenges, no mystery, and no great adventures. That might be fun for a bit…but is that really what you would want FOREVER?

Going further, would you pay admission to see a movie where the main character’s storyline consisted of walking through beautiful meadows, then sitting next to a sunlit stream, followed by spending the remainder of the movie staring serenely as clouds drifted by?
While that sound heavenly to me after a busy summer…wouldn’t that movie be entertaining for all of 10 minutes? Then we’d ask, where’s the action? Where’s the plot? Where’s the passion? Where’s the other characters?

It’s for this reason our Soul chooses to come to Earth. We want a story to live out! We want a plot! We want an array of characters – from the lovely to the mind boggling and annoying! We want challenges to rise to, we want to stretch ourselves, face our fears, and fall in (and out) of love. Our Soul longs to experience all the emotions, all the suspense, all the wins and loses.

Because our Soul knows, that no matter what our “human” goes through, we are always and forever that big ball of energy that’s connected to the Divine/Source and always “at peace” at the higher level.  Because we are both living out the game AND creating/watching it.

Shockingly, I didn’t put my son to sleep with this explanation and he seemed to like the analogy. To make him wonder even more (I love a curious mind!) I added, “but that’s just MY belief! It’s now your mission to live out your Game of Life and find your belief about why you came here.”

I reminded him to think of life as an immersive 3D adventure where the main goal is to follow what You love and not to simply follow what you think will make others love you more.

The point of the game is not to search for love from outside ourselves, but to live out our passions and love ourselves while doing so. By living in this vibration, love will then naturally ripple out to help others in their own Game of Life.

I hope this ignites a remembrance in you as you wonder, why am I here?

By remembering that a larger part of you chose to have an aspect of your Awareness come to Earth, play a human role, and experience something new – you might stir up some new energy on your life path.

I wrapped up the chat with my son with a simple tool to quiet his mind:
When what’s the point? pops up, take it as an invitation to stop and sit still.
Take a few deep breaths with your hand on your heart, and ask, what can I do next that makes me feel the most joy and expansiveness? What speaks to my heart?
Following this age-old, simple step gets you back in the groove of your own Game of Life.

And with that, I said: GO TO SLEEP!

Sweet Dreams to all the brave game players out there.

If you could picture yourself as a bit separate from what’s going on around you.  A bit of an observer – noticing the emotions, thoughts, sensations, smells, and sights of all that whirls and swirls in your awareness.  Both inside and outside the body.

Take a moment to stand still.  Still the body, slow the breath, and feel the weight of your feet on the ground.  Notice that when you stop – life continues to proceed and unfold around you.
There is nothing you have to DO.  Life is unfolding FOR you.

Now let go and take a step further back in your awareness.
Who or what is the still presence observing all that’s inside and outside?  Who or what is observing the emotions, thoughts, images, people?

Notice she can observe thoughts coming and going.  Strong emotions arising and falling away.

Do this often in times of peace and times of stress.  This stillness is your anchor.  The vibration and presence that answers when you ask yourself, “Who is aware?”
And you naturally respond, “I am.”

Resist adding labels such as “I am a Mom” or “I am happy” or “I am anxious.”

Simply “I am.”

Get to know this vast space of awareness.

It’s very close to you and very simple, so we often miss it.

Finally, what if the presence that is looking out at the world from YOUR space…is the same presence looking out from the space of each person you encounter during the day?

Are you overwhelmed with thoughts of the past, anxiety over the future, or just plain indecisive?

Do you long to feel a connection to your purpose here on Earth?

Are you seeking more happiness? More peace? More adventure?
What a wonderful space to be in!
You’re starting to question life and your place in it.
Questioning and being curious is the SWEET SPOT.
Your Soul is knocking – maybe it’s time to slow down and listen.

If you look deeper, you also know that simply changing something in your human role (hair, job, diet, exercise routine) – while helpful – never solves the actual disconnect.

Here is where meditation comes in.

I’m excited to tell you about a class I took with meditation coach Kelly Howell that refreshed my practice when I needed a little something to mix it up.
As a daily meditator for several years, I know from experience that meditation is powerful.
It’s helped me to:
* Eliminate anxiety
* Gain new ideas
* Realize and release limiting beliefs
* View life from a different perspective (human vs soul)
* Anchor in a peaceful space when life gets crazy
* Get to know my subtle energy field

Most importantly, meditation allows me feel the energetic vibration of my connection to Universe/Source/God – as a co-creator of my life.

Slowing down and quieting the monkey mind brings a higher – more peaceful and happy – frequency to your Awareness.

Contrary to what many believe, meditation isn’t just about watching your thoughts and being “mindful”.

In meditation you can ask for help (and receive it!), get inspiring new ideas, heal your body, let go of outdated beliefs, and bring more happiness to your life.
Simply put – IT GETS ALL THE GUNK OUF OF THE WAY so you can be who you really are!

THE ONLY THING IN THE WAY OF HAPPINESS, OR ABUNDANCE, OR PEACE IN LIFE….IS YOU!
Once you bring Awareness to your thoughts, beliefs, and mind chatter….your inner world changes.
This inner change creates ripples that extend into your outer world changing.
Meditation and getting quiet is KEY.

My mind chatter had grown louder during quarantines, virtual school, and so much time at home.  I’m sure many can relate to this!  So I took my frustration and questions into my meditations for several days and ASKED for my next step.  Enter Kelly Howell.

One day in the silence, her name popped into my head (this is how it works!). I had purchased Kelly’s meditations when first starting out my practice years ago, yet I hadn’t thought of her or her work in a long time.  I was so excited to see she was offering a masterclass on meditation for all levels of experience.  And I was grateful my Soul/Universe brought this to my attention when I needed it.

WHO IS KELLY HOWELL?
Kelly is the Founder of Brain Sync. With over 17 Million users worldwide, Kelly is renowned for her pioneering work in meditation, healing and mind expansion. She is a 6-time National Best Selling audio author, and her book, Brain Power: Improve Your Mind as you Age , is recommended by the Mayo Clinic.
She brings over 30 years of meditation teaching and training experience.

Kelly’s meditations combine music and binaural beats (all you need are headphones) to train your brain to relax.  I love the SCIENCE behind Kelly’s work and the simplicity of it. It is a great jumpstart to deepen your meditation.  She can get you on the right path…and the rest is up to you!

While I love to lead meditations and teach meditation techniques – I don’t have access to the library of audio/binaural beats that Kelly offers. These recordings are a wonderful tool in getting your brain to enter a meditative state.

Kelly’s class ties together teachings and audio recordings meant for both beginners and experienced meditators looking to revamp their practice.
Here’s a few details before I send you off to her website:
* This is a 4 week class – start when you’d like
* Watch the video recordings at your own pace
* Receive all the guided and unguided meditations as downloads you can use whenever you’d like

I took the time write about my experience and recommend Kelly’s course because I think people need meditation now more than ever.

Meditation helps you realize how FREE you can be in life.
You are a creator – and as you begin to get out of your own way – life unfolds as it’s meant to.

You can click on the image below to be directed to Kelly Howell’s website:

If you end up signing up for the Meditation Masterclass – please let me know how it helped you!
All the best,
Nicki

We seem to live in a world of instant gratification, combined with a constant stream of suggestion and influence.  From Amazon to Instagram to InstaCart – we see image after product after lists of “10 Ways To A Better You…” An endless stream of THIS WILL MAKE YOU HAPPY. 

Think about all the information thrown at you in one day.  

Where does that stream of suggestions and news and ideas we absorb actually GO?  They take on an energy of their own and float around in our minds on an endless loop of INNER chatter.  Running in the background, behind the scenes, noticed and un-noticed by us. 

It’s no wonder so many people feel anxious and depressed. 

We need space.  Inner space.  

Stillness.

If we don’t – or can’t – create that space, and calm the inner mind, then the next best thing is to look out in the world for peace and safety.  Eek.   

How to find happiness and peace in a world that seems to always be unhinged?  We don’t know how – but we are vigilant!  We try!  We look at the news, the world, our family and friends, and think there must be happiness and peace out there and I can be the one to find it!

Like Super Troopers, we are wired to keep looking for freedom and happiness no matter how often we fail. We’re not going to stop until we’ve exhausted all options: jobs, marriage, kids, travel, books, yoga retreats.  All great and lovely and joyous parts of life….and yet, so often providing only fleeting moments of happiness.  No consistency. 

So the search continues.

There’s a line I love in A Course In Miracles describing our human conditioning to: “Seek but do not find.” 

In other words, we’re taught to live life seeking peace and happiness, but never really finding it.  

My own search began before I was really aware of it.  Attending church often bi-weekly as a kid, I learned about God.  Yet even God’s love seemed kept at arm’s length.  And it was my job to seek it.  God was watching us, sometime judging us, other times forgiving us.  Yet I had no instructions on how to actually discover or feel that God (or Source or Universe) is found inside me.

I couldn’t grasp the concept of God/Source in a tangible way.  He/she was a vague presence dishing out some blessings and holding back others.  Church had wonderful stories and words and ideas – but all without the actual experience.  I wanted to feel God – not study her.

Searching…searching…

My career chase is another example of my endless human searching.  In my 20s I wanted the excitement of working in television production, which led me to a great internship at NBC in New York City.  My dream of meeting celebrities – if only as a production assistant – and seeing behind the scenes of TV shows was very exciting as it began to unfold.  As with anything (even despite glimpses of Jimmy Fallon in the hallway), the thrill began to diminish and I felt something was off. An underlying anxiety seemed to follow me around; daring me to look deeper.  It waited for the other shoe to drop, while also whispering there must be more than this.

My human mind spoke up and said clearly this is the wrong job!  So I switched to a shiny new job at VH1/MTV.  My dream job – helping produce shows for TV.  It was hard work and fun.  But over time, as all shiny things do, a dullness tarnished the gloss.  And the pesky inner voice was back and pushing me for more.  A better job will make me even happier.  I realized, crap, that voice in my head had followed me. It went where I went.  I changed the external location of myself, but my internal world stayed the same. Searching. Sigh.

I decided to move back to Minneapolis and the job chase continued along with the loop: thrill of the search, landing the job, enjoying the challenge, impending boredom, and realizing I still didn’t find inner happiness or peace of mind. 

Again the surroundings changed – but the inner chatter was my consistent companion. Her words were kind to me at one moment and biting at the next.  I began to think I WAS the inner critic.  I grew further away from the simple stillness that I could find so easily in childhood.

Then a great husband and the honeymoon effect brought new happiness.  This too lost it’s shiny newness and although I still love my husband (whew!) the inner feeling of…something’s missing…was never far away.

I searched – but I didn’t find.

It wasn’t until I had my son that a lightbulb turned on.  It’s as though my whole frequency shifted.  I was sleep deprived, yet felt more awake than ever before.  The feeling I had was something that he helped me remember was inside me all along.  It was a tangible and whole vibration in the center of myself.  

This marked the switch for me.  It changed my search from “out there” to where has this feeling been and how do I keep it?  I knew by then not to expect my happiness to come from someone else, not even a cute little baby, and that it had to come from inside myself.  

{An aside}:  at this point I realize I’m veering toward a cheesy quote or the message in a children’s book.  But how often do we read something we know to be true in our heart, like a message in a story, and then actually follow the insight of what we read?  Not enough.  Now get back to reading what I’m telling you (wink) and I’ll tie this all together.

A new path unfolded.  I was jumpstarted and curious about my inner world and energy and my place in it all.

That space of calm had been there all along, but hidden and covered up with years of living a life searching and not finding.  To be clear: it was not as simple as becoming a Mom changed me. I knew even the novelty of being a Mom would wear off over time, much the same as my resume of jobs.  

But this was different.  It occurred to me one night how awful and depressing it would be if this new happiness and joy I felt from being a mom might fade away over time.  And it was that thought that stopped me and pulled me out of my loop of thoughts.  It made me turn and face my inner critic head-on and say:
If happiness isn’t found consistently from people (not even my son), or places, or things – then where?  And it was then – that magic moment of saying to – …who?  My higher self?  My Soul?  Show me a better way – that life began to unfold differently.  

Inner nudges appeared.  New doors and new ideas began to open to me.  My intuition kicked in.  

Others might have a similar sudden shift in perception while being in nature, or going through an illness, or sitting in the lotus position for weeks on end.  Who knows.  

But after I had that moment of saying enough of this searching, I want to find – something in me was ignited and opened up.

Did I still go out and find another job for enjoyment?  Yep. Did I still have doubts and frustrations and wonderings?  Of course. But I saw life differently.  I went on to find energy healing and Reiki and mediumship and metaphysics.  But mainly I quit relying on happiness from something I DO or from how someone else acts. 

I found meditation and the daily lessons in A Course in Miracles.  And over time I realized I was seeking and finding.

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How does this apply to you?

There is a vibration – a subtle spark – inside each of us. It’s real and tangible and most importantly: it’s findable. I believe it’s why we came here.  And you can find it by noticing the inner critic and getting quiet.

Our inner world is the link we have with God/Source/The Creative Field. The glimpses of it don’t have to be fleeting.  You can anchor in that vibration.  That energy – Awareness – can guide you.  It’s your intuition, Soul guidance, God presence, and the river of life you float along in.

Whatever you call it, make it your priority to uncover it.  It’s not out there.  It doesn’t depend on someone coming into or leaving your life.  It doesn’t depend on someone else changing their behavior.  It doesn’t depend on losing weight or moving to a different city.

We all follow little paths of searching that may lead to nowhere and that’s fine.  Start a new path.  While we search we may figure ourselves out – or get disillusioned – go within – and stop sleepwalking through life.

Shine a light on the loop of thoughts and endless stream of planning and worrying and regretting and say out loud:  above all else I want to be happy.  Above all else. Happiness.  It’s a decision that will get the ball rolling.

Become very familiar with your inner world.  Take little 1-2 min breaks to close your eyes and breathe during the day. Get curious about what’s behind all the thoughts and anxieties and searching. Make it your mission to find stillness and I promise it will ripple out into your life.

If you’d like to explore this more, I hope you’ll join me for my upcoming 3 part online class: Awakening Your Intuition.  Intuition is simply learning to listen to what arises in the stillness.  Living intuitively means you’ll still feel all the emotions (I still get angry, sad, annoyed) but they will be passing clouds rather than your constant weather.  Your search just might take on new meaning.  

To register, visit my events page.

Thanks for reading ~ happy finding!
Nicki

Each of us has an inner guide – our Spirit/Soul/Connection to Source – and it often gets buried as our human mind and outside sources become our go-to navigators.  Rather than going within for peace and confidence and direction, it can become habit to do a quick Google search, read the news, ask a friend or family member, or read a book.  But we each have the gift of our own inner voice.  Have you been listening to yours?

This class will help you tap into the vibration of your own intuitive guidance.  I’ll be discussing the metaphysical and the spiritual side to helping you unlock the door to your intuitive self.  Gain more trust in yourself as well as more peace in the present moment – no matter what’s going on in the world.

You can attend classes live or watch the included recording.  Each week will also include a short meditation that you can listen to again.

Please register on the classes & events page. I look forward to seeing you there!

While it’s a joy to ponder and plan and wonder about life – isn’t the whole point to experience it?

I started looking at how I was energetically living my life.

I came to know we are spiritual beings first and foremost – projecting into this body suit for a bit. This means we are energetic beings, we vibrate at various frequencies, and we are constantly creating and in motion.  We’re tuning into different frequencies all day every day whether we realize it or not.

I love a visual – so let’s think of these frequencies as stations on a radio.  You can turn the dial yourself and tune into them simply by your intention and focus.

Searching is one station on the radio.

On this station, you’re looking “out there” for answers. And for every question you have, you can bet there’s a place you can look outside yourself for the answer: books, podcasts, teachers, self improvement plans, family & friends, strangers on a plane, and of course Google searches!

Receiving is another station on the radio.

This station takes you to your intuitive inner world.  Reach it quickly by closing your eyes and placing your hand on your heart.  It’s a subtle shift in frequency.  Now open your eyes and carry that space and extend it out from you.  You’ve now left searching mode and found your space as the receiver.

To receive what?  Guidance, insight, and knowing, from YOU as Spirit.

Sounds so simple, right?  Easy to do when we’re alone maybe – but harder when out and about in the world with the distractions, seeming chaos, and bright shiny objects.

So how does this apply to life?

I was a HUGE goal setter growing up.  I loved setting up future plans, posting them on lists, patting myself on the back for making them happen, and kicking myself for failures.  It was comforting to feel like I was in control.  Until I realized I was putting way too much trust and importance on “getting things done” and not enough on what’s going on RIGHT NOW.  How am I feeling?  How am I connecting to the Great Spirit/Creator and my Spirit?   Goals were taking me out of the present moment and constantly focusing my busy, worrying, fearful mind on the future.

In other words, my station was consistently set to searching.

It. Was. Draining.

I realized I didn’t want to always be looking at the map.  I wanted to loosen my grip on planning, strategizing, and trying to maintain a flimsy sense of control.

I dug deep, then deeper, then gave myself permission to just BE.  To set intentions – but leave myself open to receive.  To remember that the human side of me doesn’t know the bigger plan. I’m not always in control of this story, and that’s frustrating, but it’s okay.

The moment I became disenchanted with future planning was the moment I put the map down and said: let’s just see what comes up next.   AND JUST LIKE THAT…my Soul, Spirit, and Source were given a doorway to enter.

My searching mode ceased and I (slowly, I’ll admit) turned my station to receiver.

{Full disclosure: yes, I have to turn my station there again some days}

You came here for a purpose. And the purpose is not to get caught up in the chaos of Earth.  Because while it’s chaos to our human eyes and in our human story, there is a greater plan and meaning.  But you do have to change your radio station.  

Your purpose could be as simple as planting a garden, being a great parent, or I don’t know, raising llamas.  The point is, it’s what feels good, peaceful, and natural in your heart.  Receiving mode will lead you there. You’ll feel it intuitively.

What if you gave yourself permission to quit looking down at your map and instead took a deep breath, accepted the present moment, and took a single step forward.  Guided moment…by moment…by moment.

Imagine your life – from start to finish – as a book. I’ll use myself as an example.  The character in my book is named Nicki.  I’m playing her part – as a mother, wife, friend, etc.  Look beyond the book and notice the presence holding the book, reading it, and experiencing the story from start to finish (birth to death).  Who is this presence viewing the story?  This is your Soul.  And your connection to the Great Spirit.  When the story of Nicki ends someday, this presence will continue on.

See how I am both the character in the story AND the presence looking at the big picture and the full book of my life?  I’m both. 

When we forget or shut out the greater aspect of ourself that is our Soul – it’s easy to feel lost in the story of our life.  We can feel limited or play the victim or lack inspiration when we tune out our true nature – which is that of Spirit.

Have you tapped into that part of yourself that’s viewing your story from the greater perspective?  Be curious.  Who is holding and viewing the book of your life?

Find time to close your eyes and sit in the space of your inner world.  Slow your breath.  Welcome in the energy of your Soul and of the Great Spirit (however you label your creator).  If your thoughts and the energy around you feel busy, dense, or very chaotic – that’s ok.

Just notice.  How much of the subtle energy surrounding you is YOUR actual thoughts and energy?

How much of the energy is from family and friends’ thoughts and opinions?
How much is from the media?
How much is from books you read and TV shows you watch?
Can you filter them out and get down to YOUR essence?  Your own quiet thoughts and insights?

Healing is really a peeling back of all that isn’t yours – to discover what really is.  

Let go of ideas that don’t bring you peace. 

When we start to calm down our inner world and quiet the voices of the world “out there” – we are giving the Soul and Spirit SPACE to come in.  Let the Soul that’s creating and reading your book of life bring you insight and guidance.  Listen.  You’re not meant to be on this journey alone.  

Who is turning the page of your book?  Who wrote the story and is planning out the chapters?  Tap into this Source.

Why do this?  To bring more joy into the unfolding of your life.  To feel the rush of exciting chapters and to feel the sadness of the harder ones – and everything in between.  Surrender to the fact that you (the human) are not always the one in control of your story.  The Soul knows the outcome.  Over time you’ll see the reasons for how things are falling into place.

Be open to Inspiration.

What is INSPIRATION?  Inspiration is Divine Guidance.  You receive it almost as if it popped in from outside of your human self.  A sudden spark of insight.  What if I did this today?.. What if I tried this solution?… I should really reach out to that friend today.

Inspiration comes from a deep and intuitive knowing within you.  It flows in easily when we let it.

Feeling UNinspired?  

Shift your perspective ever so subtly to that of your Soul and Spirit.  See your story from the wider view.
Inspiration will flow in freely when we do our part to relax and trust.

The answers to anything you seek are not in a book, or from a guru, or from changing your diet or your body.  You have the answers already when you really clear out the clutter and listen.

Soon you’ll remember and know the truth: that you’re not just the character in this life you’re living – you’re a vessel for the Soul to live out a story. The Soul is guiding you – are you paying attention?  Let in more of the Light that you are and you’ll notice no mater what comes up in your story – you have the anchor of who you really are to bring you peace and perspective.  

Some of us more asleep than others.  

The world is our collective imagining.  A lucid dream that we all share.  

As we live and breathe within The Divine, each of us a cell creating this world – our temporary home with Mother Earth.

Somewhere, many times along the way, our dream got off course.  

We took the Earth for granted, each other, the animals, the soil, the oceans.

Judgement, guilt, un-forgiveness, and blame turned cell against cell.  

The body of humanity began to ache, and tire, and weaken.

We forgot that we are a collective, breathing body – each of us dependent on the other.

When fear, anger, judgement and hatred simmer just below the surface…the pressure builds.  

A tipping point is reached and the fearful energy erupts.  

And a virus is given fertile space to grow.

Our collective slumber begins to stir and and we rub our eyes, shake our head, wonder to ourselves, “what have we created”.

And The Divine just smiles.  

Because we are always encompassed, surrounded, loved, and never judged.  

The Divine knows who we really are.  We are more than the dream we have dreamed.

We are light.  We are love.  

And we are called to remember.

And so, like a child, we are forced to take a time out.

We face our inner world as we each seclude, slow down, and go within.

The dust has been kicked up, the fires have erupted, the winds have shaken us.

And now we are asked to let it settle. 

What can we release and what can we call in.

We face our creation, we invite in our Divine Self, and we open our Mind.

When we feel like crying, we cry.  When we feel like helping, we help.  When we feel like laughing, we laugh.  When it’s all too much, we forgive ourselves. 

And when we feel fear, we really feel it. We sit in it, stew in it, and fear the fear itself.

And soon we realize to push it away only gives it permission to come back again later.  

So we stare it down and it loses it’s power.  We remember our strength.

Our calling is realized as we surrender and let go.  

And so the cells begin to work together again.  

Everyone serves in the way they are called. Even those paralyzed by fear or sadness – they hold that space and feel it – which gives it room to rise and be released.

Wherever you are is where you’re supposed to be.

And the world continues to turn.  As slowly the cells begin to remember their light.

And one cell lights up and the cell next to them begins to brighten.

And The Divine keeps smiling.  Keeps breathing us.  Keeps the pulse of life in steady rhythm.

The plan is unfolding; we are doing our part.  

We forgive our emotions, our moods, our anger, our pain.  

We let go of all guilt.

The Divine is not a punisher.  The Divine is not separate from us.  

The Divine is cradling us as a mother to a small child who is having a nightmare.  Wake up, wake up, she says.

So we rest, we slow down when we can, we take action when called.  

We build a cocoon.

We ease our grip, our opinions, our constant need for control.  Because we have no choice.

We remember our inner power and forgive the outside world for all the ways it has let us down.

Some fight it, some ignore it, some embrace it.  All ways are part of the plan.

And soon we emerge from our cocoons.  

Some scared of change, other eager to stretch their wings.

And each cell slowly points the way, and the collective body begins to breathe together again.

As slowly we wake up and a new dream takes form.  

And we are a new Being in a New World.

-Nicki Gordon

“ A happy outcome to all things is sure.”  A Course In Miracles, lesson 292

After an hour I moved downstairs to the couch.  There’s something comforting about being able to lay and look out the window.  I closed my eyes and told myself to find the space of peace I find during meditation.  My breath slowed, my mind followed.

Soon I felt a rush of energy wash over me.  It was all encompassing and I felt it surround me and move inside me.  It was a high vibration and almost like someone was wrapping a warm blanket of support around me.  That’s all I remember before I fell asleep.

This is a trying time for everyone.  What connects us all is that we’re all in it together AND we’re all supported with loving energy.  I felt it first hand early this morning and I plan to breathe into it throughout the day.  

We will get through this time.  Each of us has a Divine Plan that is unique to us.  We are always guided.  

Keep focusing on the greater perspective.  Remember you are not just this human story – you are a vast Soul.  You are here for a reason.  If you find yourself like me at 5am, watching your thoughts and going within to center yourself, maybe you’ll feel pulled to try this simple process:

Breathe deep.
Relax.
Ask for help – from your guides, angels, the Universe, your Higher Self, The Divine.  The vast beyond if you prefer.
Feel what shows up.  You don’t have to do anything – unless calmly guided to take action.   

By simply being open and willing, the energy (love, joy, insight, God/Goddess) will merge with you.  It’s a subtle energy but you can feel it if you’re still.

Let that feeling guide you in the moment.  Divinely guided insight is always loving and calm – never fearful and forced.

I find I’m constantly having to watch my thoughts during this time.  Feel what comes up, ask for help, and wait for the feeling to shift.  What I do know is it always shifts.  The fog always lifts. 

I keep the quote below, channeled from Suzanne Giesemann, in my night stand.  I don’t have insomnia often, but when I do – it reminds me to find the deeper meaning in being unable to sleep.  What is my Soul and Spirit trying to tell me?

“You cannot sleep?  You awaken in the middle of the night?  What a gift!
But only if and when you dig down and under the worries and the racing thoughts
and the never-ending story and discover there the pearls and insights, the connections,
the reason for it All.
Those nudges, those snags, those seeming irritations…
all of them are leading you, guiding you, pulling you,
taking you in whatever way possible to one place: Home.

Home is not actually a place, but a state of awareness
that all of the confusion, all of the seeking, all of the learning,
all of the chance encounters were not chance at all,
but signs within the web that you are both the web
and the Being being spun out of that web.
Find your way back Home when you cannot sleep.
Begin by asking the question: What is the gift in this moment?”

In gratitude,
Nicki

I’m constantly learning more about energy, the unlimited power of our Mind, the loving beams of light that connect us all, and just how permeable and changeable our reality is.  When we realize we are made up of light energy – we realize how vast and powerful we are.

Our bodies are energy, our emotions are energy, the world that looks solid around us is actually moving energy.  Light. Vibration.

This is a great thing because we can clear our energy field (auras, chakras) of gunk like fear and anxiety.  When we replace that lower vibrational energy (remember thoughts are energy) with the light and love that surrounds us, we experience less stress, more peace, and a body that can heal itself.  All you need to do is believe it’s possible.  What’s the biggest barrier here?  The limiting thoughts of the Mind.

Here’s where Donna Eden comes in.  Donna is a well known Energy Healer and I love her Daily Energy Routine.  It’s simple and anyone can do it.  My kids usually join in if I have it on TV.
This routine focuses on your pressure points, subtle energy, aura, meridians, and chakras.  Is this gibberish to you?  That’s fine; it will still work.  And you’ll have an immediate boost in energy when you’re done.  Your immune system will thank you.  And your Mind will be clearer.  More grounded.

What if everyone reading this did Donna’s routine during a short break at work?  How would the world change if everyone took simple steps to take care of their subtle energy?

Here’s the link to view on YouTube:

In gratitude,
Nicki